“Everyday, I was strugglin’ to learn what life’s about” -Drake

Those words have changed my life…. I had my vague picture of what I wanted my life to consist of, but as you grow into an adult the vision changed and changed again!!! That’s when the discouragement started to slowly put doubt, fear, and what ifs swirling around my head. I’m four years into this journey of redemption. Not to prove myself to anyone, but for my own personal satisfaction and of course accomplishment. The struggle of making the best out of your time here on earth can be intimidating. I know I battled myself for a long time. Complaining about my finances, my love life, my living situation and I could go on and on lol of the things that I felt wasn’t enough. I wanted more but kept settling in every aspect

I use to hear “you get what you settle for” and since I have a champagne taste on a beer budget. To make matters worse I didn’t care I was living beyond my means. Lol never stopped me from complaining about my income or change it. I’ve been training to do financials and am more aware or my own finances ( not going to lie I was frustrated and when money came up I just felt so bitter/ pissed that after I pay my bills Bc it was already spent So every time money was brought up I turned into a mean bitch. Bc I was so ashamed of my wage and the money I was making and literally argued for not only lecturing me about my bill and then trying to put $100 on my bill and the balance was higher then what needed to be payed. I was trying to prove that I could do it and didn’t need the hand out but honestly I couldn’t afford my phone bill and Xmas gifts So instead of accepting that I cannot afford to be caught up and have a 0 Balance. The payment plan method has worked with no issues. Then A text comes thru that said thank you for your payment!! LIVID ABSOLUTELY LIVID!!! So I’m Angry, sad, and just running on low patience. Fast forward a week still having financial obligations piling up and yet I’m still going to have drinks and dinner with friends or family. ( you know that saying fake it til you make it!) Is a recipe for staying broke!! So here I am working in an accounting firm, living with my aunt, and only have my phone bill, gas and rent. I’m settling for what?? ( light 💡 went on in this brain of mine.!) see god has a plan for me that I refused to accept. Everything I have been thru this year has lead me to seeing my glass half empty and instead half full!! I know I have a ways to accomplish my goals and live life to the fullest but it all starts with being fortunate for everything I am blessed to have and to know that I make enough to pay my bills without worrying how I am going to have to come up with whatever bill it might be. It’s a huge milestone and the start of becoming financially stable. I’m so determined and passionate to manifest it into reality that I know I will succeed. I have been working on becoming the best possible me that I have had to make some tough decisions and walk away from others , and it has nothing to do with feeling superior over others but more of never loosing sight of where you are going!! I can say from experience the more you change for the better; the more you crave to do more to become the best. It’s never to late and I m not going to lie. I was lost and started Giving up but I prayed and kept pushing and now I have a stable Monday thru Thursday and going to start community college this coming semester transfer to a university and want a bachelors degree in Art and minor in accounting. Be living proof that anything is possible s long s you put your mind to it. With that being said there will always be obstacles, negativity, and excuses. You have to find the solution, have faith in god, and as far as excuses just eliminate them all together and replace them with a plan of action to ensure results. Shoot for the stars. Yours Truly- Gina Marie

Author: Life Confessions

my name is Gina and I have decided to try and make sense of some of my madness and hope that it can inspire or help someone else thru this thing we call life. While using this as an outlet to express myself and put some of my thoughts in a safe place. so please excuse my random thoughts unless you can make use out of them…. then carry on use as many as you would like!!

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