Reflection

The end of the year is days away which means it’s time to look back on the my growth and of course the areas I need to improve. I’m not going to lie the year was a roller coaster of a girl trying to make it in this world. With that said I never have felt so excited, nervous and just dang right anxious to see what the new year will bestow upon me!! I have inched my way proving I can be everything others had doubted was even possible out of me. The crazy part it’s only the beginning every step I have taken has led me to the conclusion that my hard work and dedication is paying off and it’s not happening over night but it’s happening and that’s why the very familiar gut clenching feeling has graced me with its presence. I have literally worked my ass off this year and life is Finally making sense. Before I had an idea and just played it by ear. I was growing and that was ok with me. Now I can actually say confidently where I will be in 5 yrs!! I will have control over my finances, near graduating from a university, settled down with my little family. The things that seemed impossible to ever accomplished don’t seem so impossible anymore. I had to accept and make peace with where I am in life Bc for one I have come so far to give my daughter most importantly and myself a better life, and secondly the feeling of anxiety from knowing that it’s time for you to take that next leap of faith into the growth in every aspect of my life. CHANGE is unfamiliar and kinda scary. (at least that’s what it makes me feel) On the flip side the pay off will be well worth any of that…. I have never knew that things are finally falling in place and I have a plan and I have learned that it is ok to have expectations and I’m not getting any younger so I have no time to waste. Every minute is valuable. I have soaked up so much knowledge this last year that it made me hungry for more. Which has brought back I feel like a valuable lesson to my child’s life I hope! See we were playing the game of LIFE and she didn’t make an investment in her education and decided to go down the path without school Bc she didn’t want to spend the money, and I chose to pay and go down the path of going to college. Moral of the story at the end of the game I was making more money then her. … Had a better house…. and retired well off and she didn’t. Lol needless to say we played again and she invested im that education!! Haha so it’s kinda an analogy of my life. The second chance. A rematch of this game called LIFE!! Thank you 2017 for all the lessons you taught me. I promise to go into 2018 ready to challenge myself to be aware of the areas to improve my growth process. Lol but I tell you what my past has definitely kicked my ass and definitely I am paying for it now!! (Literally) this was so depressing to even talk about but today I am glad I am knocking it out. It was wonderful 2017!! Ready or not 2018 I have no choice but to be ready…. wish me luck. – yours truly Gina

Author: Life Confessions

my name is Gina and I have decided to try and make sense of some of my madness and hope that it can inspire or help someone else thru this thing we call life. While using this as an outlet to express myself and put some of my thoughts in a safe place. so please excuse my random thoughts unless you can make use out of them…. then carry on use as many as you would like!!

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