Giovanna Michelle

A letter to my daughter

trying to make a dollar out of 15 cents is an understatement

I don’t know exactly where to start so I will just start from the beginning. Your dad and I never really discussed having kids or even bothered to discuss kids, but after all of our friends were having babies and we still hadn’t gotten pregnant. It started to become a topic we would discuss and start trying to have a baby and I mean we bought books, took any advice to help our chances to get pregnant. Well a year passed and some of our friends were already on their second and third kid. Followed by some not so proud hard times that somehow your dad and I survived, but thoughts of a baby were not on the top of our priority list anymore. We figured whatever was meant to be would be….. Then like that I had been noticing things that I loved I didn’t even want and then…

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Daily Prompt: Loophole

The infamous LOOPHOLE! It’s the twinkle that lights up your eye when u have lost hope accepting what will be and then it hits you “What if“ ….  when u can see the gray in something that someone tells you it’s  black and white. It’s finding that one technicality which you still abide by the rules but decided to play the same game with an advantage per say.  Loopholes are the ideas/ answers that some have had to put some long hard thought by analyzing the situation to find that one little detail and using it to your benefit. Loopholes is the definition of that saying “ If there is a will there is a way!” Loopholes are the key     when you might feel like your back is against the wall and have run out of options.  I can go on and on about loopholes but I think you get my drift  Not everyone can find them or even look for them for numerous reasons but if you are one of the few that takes a look at the whole picture instead of just looking at what’s in front of you then I tip my hat to you and respect how you will go the extra mile or not accept those dreadful words There is nothing you can do about it. By proving there is always something you can do to maybe not fix it but could definitely improve the situation. Don’t settle for mediocre… Shoot for the stars!! Make the impossible possible even if you have to squeeze thru a loophole or two… As long as you stay true to yourself and play by the rules then why not?

 

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The Daily Post- Study = ol·o·gy – a subject of study; a branch of knowledge.

When I think of the endless possibilities that one could study!! The unlimited amount of knowledge that you gain and how we incorporate study without even knowing. We subconsciously studying the body language of people we pass on a busy sidewalk or the study of a first impression of someone we meet.  To study based on curiosity of the unknown or from a class, book, or lecture; such as bio-OLOGY or astr-OLOGY. You could practically put OLOGY behind countless words and waa -laaa magic it turns into an objective which we focus on and go in depth of whatever the heart desires to discover about it. Endless amounts of material at our fingers tips with the ol faithful; number one go to when we have a question that you need an answer for… GOOGLE!! It has taken over the days when u actually had to pull out the encyclopedia or go to the library and spend hours researching any and all information that was available to obtain knowledge of the subject. Techn-OLOGY HAS MADE STUDYING ACCESSIBLE NO MATTER WHERE OR WHAT YOUR DOING A CLICK OR LINK AWAY.  It’s an amazing thing to have the privilege to have. So STUDY AND STUDY SOME MORE.  YOU CAN NEVER HAVE TO MUCH KNOWLEDGE

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The Daily Prompt -Entertain

I use to entertain the Negativity that they knew would get a reaction out of me and get me totally engaged with anger and fury. Ranting and raging back and forth trying to prove that I was right. Hours and hours of wasted emotion, time and to be honest was just  mentally exhausting… I use to fall into these “entertaining wars” and then it hit me!! What was I doing? Why did I insist on doing that to myself?? As I reflected on every day I entertained these pointless verbal/text wars that got absolutely nowhere but myself worked up       I decided that I was falling into their trap every time I empowered them. I wasn’t winning… I actually lost for wasting my valuable time and energy to entertain and feed them with satisfaction of getting exactly what they wanted, so from that moment on I vowed to never let anyone have the power to be able to Control my emotions and get the reaction they thrived from. Instead they got silence… Bc  like it has been proven that When they are not able to get attention they are looking for They will do what they do and lash out by saying or doing something that creates drama. They do this because negative attention is still attention.  Moral of this blog.  Don’t entertain negative attention one might be seeking and you will not only win the war, but will feel a weight lifted off your shoulders and can’t forget the best part of it all they no longer can tell themselves they can control you mentally or drain you of positive vibes!!!

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Pressure make Diamonds 💎

As I sit here and hum the lyrics to this new track that has graced me with its presence. I also have been analyzing this metaphor in the back of my head and I can feel myself gravitate towards it more and more by the minute. It’s almost like saying “beautiful disaster” or ” the cuccoon turning into the butterfly” see they all have the same concept every unpolished, ugly, or unexpected tragedy is something beautiful. The pressures of the decision that I will not accept my predistinguished way of life and believe me this probably has been the hardest thing I have done by far…. Training myself to break old habits; Yet learn new ones, falling in and out of love searching for my soulmate, and hold myself accountable for being the 30 yr old in college Bc I never took school seriously the first time around. I hold my head high while continuing the journey knowing that every tear I have shed, doubt I have had, and fear of the unknown is the small price you have to pay for the luxury of manifesting my goals and aspirations into reality. I use my life as an example for my daughter to show her that it’s never to late to persevere, but if you do it right the first time then you can spend more time enjoying the fruits of your labour. No matter how overwhelming I may seem to feel… I just take a deep breath inhale then slowly exhale reminding myself to focus taking one day at a time by taking one step at a time…. Sincerely yours truly Gina Marie

“Life is just like a game,

First you have to learn rules of the game,

And then play it better then any one else.”- Albert Einstein

In our short film, a love disgrace Dream a scene to brighten face – Alien Ant Farm

The moment that you both can face the facts of no matter how deep the love you feel in your heart for each other doesn’t compensate for all the pain we inflicted on one another, tears shed and fingers pointed. Yet we used those things as the reason we should never give up! What? Seriously blinded by love… Love isn’t supposed to be perfect; obstacles expected. There are limits. Boundaries that should never be crossed. Cherish and always keep in consideration of the others feeling. It’s like everything that could be done to hurt one other was done. Hey but it was ok Bc we love each other and forgive the wrongs that have been done. Til when? See after awhile it becomes harder and harder to just love each other not Bc love itself but the pain we continue to let consume us and causes the actions which then there is the reaction. Just like that there it goes a chain of reactions based on emotion no logic even taken place. How? It’s a fight literally for their heart and protecting your own. It’s a double edged sword. You want to protect yours and fighting to keep theirs. If you really love each other and know that u can’t continue to allow to keep saying its love when actually it’s more like love sick. Addicted to the pain Bc the pleasure will make us that much stronger as a justification. Then one day you wake up and realize that your tired and have no more fight left. Love is a hell of a thing and to have to throw in the towel and come to terms that there is nothing more that can be done. Accept that we have to let go. The last scene…. (not the way I played it out in my head) We say our goodbyes and calmly walk away knowing it is the end. Only left with memories and shattered dreams. Would I change it? Maybe one thing but no I would do it all over again with no hesitation just to enjoy the moments that made the fight worth every minute. No sequels…. Just The End….

Ashes to ashes dust to dust Lead in the bus, sweets and tusk Mobbin heavy in a Chevy Breaking concrete, Polo on my body and Nikes on my feet – Lil Keke

Those lyrics represent where I came from and represents some of the best times of my teenage years!! Southside was not only the anthem of the neighborhood I grew up in but also had much love and respect for. Tonight was a little celebration of my growth and a reminder of where I came from. Honestly I can say with pride that not only did I embrace being in the moment but also that I let loose again as if I was 18 hosting the after party where we would literally soul train in my kitchen every one busting out their moves while showing love and stunting on each other til dawn!! As we get old the more conservative we get and more aware of how others see us as a person. We fear the Chance of being judge or what people think or say!! Have standards and expectations. Tonight I felt 18 all over again dancing the night away, dance battles for shits and giggles. Took me back to a familiar place of things that I forgot I loved to do. Somehow very humbling and a reminder of the good ol day’s when Life was about living in the moment. Cheers to a blast from the past (kinda) lol I had so much fun.