Perfect Imperfections

Once again I felt as I have been neglecting my blog but as I sit here waiting with anxiety weighing high as my brain overload of what it’s, self doubt, and somehow I still have this tiny little voice fighting back saying in fact I really may have a shot at this. I came to the conclusion that what makes my art beautiful is Bc it’s a reflection of who I am and knowing I am not perfect but I also know I love and feel beautiful! My imperfections make me beautiful as well as in my art. It’s so funny how therapeutic having an outlet to share my thoughts in my most vulnerable moments. When my mind just is at war! It’s a self battle of growth and complacency…. so here I am face to face with some bright idea that I start becoming more and more interested in and since I’m sharing it with so many people that love and support me and my dream expressing their genuine belief in my talent have all persistently agreed why not!! Lol and I’m thinking to myself 50 million reason I have already told myself why not! I decided to be a tough ass and enter knowing damn well I could have came up with some lame excuse on why I decided not to enter but instead I decided to step out my comfort zone (which by the way is becoming more and more comfortable.) by pumping myself up mentally. Accepting failure and or a loss is the fundamentals to mastering your craft. With that being said I’m going into this experience being ok with the fact I am not guaranteed to win, but knowing the that I will not only regret and always have the what if, but by not entering is an automatic fail/loss so instead I’m just going to embrace my talent which might not be perfect but definitely beautiful! 

I remember syrup sandwiches and gram allowances, but just remember there is no such thing as life better then yours!!

Well I know that some won’t understand or even relate to this so far fetched analogy, but I can guarantee there is more that can relate, and since I listen to music that I can understand and appreciate what they express thru their lyrics. I never did the syrup sandwiches, but mayonnaise, ketchup, and sometimes just a slice of bread that i would roll into a ball and eat like it was a 5 star meal!! as far as the allowances lol hey what can I say it was just as good as cash.  I didn’t have the everything handed to me on a silver spoon, but I knew it could be way worse and so as  J. Cole said Love yours no matter how big your house may be as long as the people in there love you dearly that’s all that matters!!  Where is all this coming from you ask??  I seem to look at life in a different perspective as the days pass and there is so much truth in ” Beauty in the struggle, Ugliness in Success” see I jumped head first into my current career venture knowing that i will be putting in a lot of time and work with a fraction of the pay, but I also know that the opportunity, knowledge, and not having to stress about the business/ financial responsibilities that come with being the boss is something I truly can say that it is a blessing. Even though I am there helping out and meeting client’s so I can start building my own clientele so when i look back at all the hard work and dedication was worth every minute!!! As of the ugliness that comes from success I have seen also…. But hey you either see the glass half full or have empty and if you choose to look at it half empty who am I to tell you that your perception is wrong and mine is right? I will say that whatever energy you put into the world is what is given to you, so next time you feel like your better then someone else, deserve more, or can’t understand why nothing positive happens to you… I would suggest to take a couple steps back to reevaluate how you not only look at life from your own eyes but what energy u are manifesting into reality!!! tomorrow isn’t promised, so why not make everyday something great!!! stay humble and hustle hard to have the opportunity to bless someone with the same blessing bestowed upon yourself!!! Pay it Forward……..

I just want to be successful….  a couple of tips to help u succeed! #IDGT #hustlehumble 

. Having confidence and believing in yourself is paramount for success to come. If you don’t have the confidence to believe in yourself, fake it until you make it.

create a set of values and follow them through your life. Be unique — this is what truly makes you human.

Success is no more than the result of consistency and lots of small work. Draw goals, be consistent and keep working towards them

Don’t be afraid to fail. Take risks and get out of your comfort zone, this is the only way that you will achieve success — by constantly putting yourself in situation that you are likely to fail in.

. Those who succeed are the ones that spot and act on opportunities as they are presented. Realize that preparation is key to utilize opportunities.

I’m listening to You Are a Badass at Making Money: Master the Mindset of Wealth by Jen Sincero, narrated by Jen Sincero on my Audible app. Try Audible and get it here: https://www.audible.com/pd?asin=B01N9EC5T7&source_code=ASSORAP0511160006

Luvin’ u…..

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“Luving U”
Yeah
Do you still scroll through them text messages?

This Henny got me thinking bout the things that you said

It was real, for real

Love for three weeks feeling half past dead

Sitting here reflecting what’s in my head

And I feel, for real
I’m running low so don’t play with my time

I’m searching but it’s nothing left to find

Send out a call but no one’s on the line

So if you want it please make up your mind

Please make up your mind

I don’t wanna lose myself loving you, loving you

I don’t wanna lose myself loving you, loving you
You know everything cause I put it in my songs

If I tell you that I’m working, I ain’t out doing you wrong

I got too much on my plate to have some shit that I don’t need

I ain’t asking you for space just some room to fucking breathe

But I can’t stress myself by tryna prove my fucking love

I stand up, say “I had enough”

She stand up “boy you think you tough”

Take my phone, search what you want

“Whose this bitch?” “Girl that’s my mom”

“Who this women?” Girl that’s my aunt”

I could be a lame nigga, that’s what you want

See you want me to be a pretty liar so bad

But I can’t fuck with karma cause she always comes back

So call me every name you can find in the book

But don’t try to discredit every chance that I took
I’m running low so don’t play with my time

I’m searching but it’s nothing left to find

Send out a call but no one’s on the line

So if you want it please make up your mind

Please make up your mind

I don’t wanna lose myself loving you, loving you

I don’t wanna lose myself loving you, loving you
I don’t wanna lose myself, I don’t wanna lose myself

I don’t wanna lose myself, y-y-self

I don’t wanna lose myself, I don’t wanna lose myself

I don’t wanna lose myself, I don’t wanna lose myself

I don’t wanna lose myself, I don’t wanna lose myself

I don’t wanna lose myself, I don’t wanna lose myself

I just wanna be broke foreva… that’s that shit no ever says!

  • I know I haven’t posted a blog in a couple weeks, but believe me I swear I have really started to consider carrying a tape recorder to be able to capture my Ah- Ha moments or just fun facts. Either way when I started this blog I honestly thought I would have more time to Share my thoughts but also to have a timeline/ the memoirs of this journey from beginning til where ever it takes me. So I guess you can say that I had been taking some risks, stepping out of my comfort level and fully committing to new opportunities. When u feel like u have been just treading water and had no idea how to catch a break. I had been taking loss after loss trying to start working for myself and wanted to give up many times and threw myself many big ass pity party which included the excuses, failing, and of course the sick feeling you get in the pit of your stomach from stepping out of our comfort zone. I guess 3 yrs ago I would have never have thought I would ever be capable of having at best a mediocre life. Even though I knew in my heart I was capable of becoming something Great!!! So being the late bloomers I totally was I have no time to waste on settling but to know my worth and don’t stop chasing the dream. Ok ok so I have been on this hard core mission to make a name for myself as I continued treading away I never gave up or threw in the towel and right after I started this blog things had started to take a tremendous turn for the better. Like I literally made an inquiry about a position and met for the interview and after chatting and getting to know about her beliefs and expectations I was hired! and these are the amazing women I am grateful to call my colleagues.
  •  The  May Flowers Fine Art Show 2017  I had the honor to be a live art exihibit turned out very successful and could feel the vibes of amazement. Words can not describe how proud I was of myself of how I created such a beautiful piece of art on a live canvas who brought my work to life !! Even tho I know this was a small breakthrough into an endless amount of opportunities…. I just plan to keep the flame burning strong in my soul then I will have the life that I know is in my reach. I’m not going to be rolling in the doe over night but if I keep striving towards success then there should be no reason I will not be successful!! It’s time to break the cycle and give my daughter opportunities I either took for granted or just never had…. without the struggle you can’t not fully appreciate the success!!! The dream is free…. The hustle is sold separately  sincerely from yours truly Gina Marie….